I'M BROKEN, ARE YOU?

This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this...

New Perspective

REGENERATION!


Dati akala ko wala na akong chance na magbago...

Pero hindi pala...

Di'ba sabi nila God is the God of Love and Forgiveness..

Thanks to Him..

Hahanap at hahanap pala si God ng way para mapalapit ka ulit sa kanya...

ng hindi mo namamalayan..

Isa lamang akong dakilang tanga, engot, pakawala sa mundong ito...

Akala ko hindi na Niya ako mahal,

pero ako lang pala ang nakalimut sa Kanya..

NEVER AKONG INIWAN NI GOD.

Ako ang umiiwan sa kanya, pero kahit gaano ako kasama, kahit kailan ay hindi niya ako pinabayaan...

Oo, hindi natin maiwasan ang masaktan, physically, at emotionally..
pero instead na magtanim pala tau ng grudge sa taong nakasakit sa atin,
let's BE POSITIVE...

Hindi nman siguro lahat ng bagay na nangyari sa inyo ng taong yun eh puro lang
sakit ang dulot niya..

Minsan sila rin ang ginagawang instrument ni God para mapalapit ulit tau sa kanya..

Ganito kasi yan...

Kung hindi kami naghiwalay ni "bespren" hindi ko makaka-fling si "Gambit"

(na sinaktan rin ako) w/c is a member of the Christian Youth REGENERATION..

at dito ko nakita ulit ang sarili ko..

at first may kunting hesitation kasi feeling ko OUT-of-PLACE ako,

palagi kasing umiiral ang negativity ko..

Pero I was wrong, this is where I belong..

I'm a son of God and this is HIS people..

I know all of us are sinners, no one is perfect..

But there's still hope..

God.

So choose hope.

Choose Him.



next blog ulit...

GOD BLESS!

Nakakaasar!!

Hahai...


Natry nio na bang magalit sa isang bagay na hindi dapat kagalitan>??

(ano daw?

GRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!


Badtrip ako ngaun mxado kasi,

kung kelan ang daming customers, saka magpapalya ang internet connection..


dagdagan mo pa ng ingay ng mga tambay sa shop na nakikigulo lang sa mga naglalaro,

jan pa ung mga teacher na magpapaxerox nga lang ng dalawang copies, eh minamadali ka pa..

dagdagan mo pa ng mga estudyanteng demanding pagdating sa games na gusto..

kesyo iba daw ang map ng dota, kesyo patching pa daw ang 12 sky..


PAGSASAPAKIN ko kaya tong mga to..

Kuya, bat walang firefox d2 sa unit ko!!!

Bwesit!!

eh kung ipalapa kita sa FOX!!

at pakainin ng FIRE!!!


GRRRRRRR!!!


sa totoo lang nde sana tungkol d2 ang bago kong blog..


xori kung ginawa ko nmang EMOTIONAL DIRT POOL ang blog na to...


kasi gagawa sana ako ng tungkol sa NEW FOUND LOVE ko..


cge next blog nlang ang tungkol sa kanya...


GOD bless...


^_^

My First Blog

G'day!

Actually may dati na akong blogspot...


(www.********.blogspot.com)


pero I finally decided to end it na.. kasi I want to start something new...


something me...


Ung ako tlaga,

ung walang tinatago...


I know na mahirap maging ako pero alam ko KAYA ko to!!


Ako pa!!

To start, I'll introduce myself..


I'm Marco Guipo Ramirez,

21 years old and currently living here in Davao City..

Marco ang name ko, taken from the names of my parents..

Mar- Maria Rose Villa Guipo
Co - Conrado Ramirez

(sighs)

My name represents the unity of my parents pero nde sila united..

T_T

I was only three years old when my mother left us...

Kasi nambubugbog daw ang papa (w/c is a Muslim)

kaya lumaki akong nde ko nakikita ng Mom ko...

Actually nakakagaan kami sa buhay dati, kasi ang Papa ko ay may

minahan sa Pantukan (somewhere in ComVal Province) pero

bumagsak kasi napabayaan na ng papa mula nung iwan kami ni mama..


(sighs)

hahai.. yoko na magkwento.. naiiyak tuloy ako..


cge till next blog.....